Unconditional

January 9 in “The Language of Letting Go” by Melodie Beattie says:

“We may believe, at an unconscious level, that others are responsible for our happiness, just as we’re responsible for theirs.”

I know that 8 years ago, I believed this. Then my world crashed and burned in the wake of sexual addiction, and I resolved to get healthier.

But today I realized that a need much deeper than happiness has driven my last 8 years: the need for unconditional love. I am convinced that God loves me unconditionally. And I have been surrounded in His peace and love, even while in tremendous pain.

And still, at an unconscious level, I have believed that if I could love my husband unconditionally, then maybe his love for me would be unconditional. It’s worked about as well as expecting him to make me happy.

It’s time to focus on loving myself. Unconditionally.